Forever

Never have I met a man quite like you,
You make me smile with the slightest of ease…
You fill my heart with a kind of love,
A love that I did not think was possible…
When I look into your eyes,
I cannot help but think how amazing you are…
Making me feel the way I do,
Feeling pure ecstasy when we kiss…
Never do I want you to let me go…
Your arms around me, holding me, forever…

My 3 year old's computer art

 

Wishing...

Wish you were here,

Your hand upon my waist,

Your warm breath upon my neck.

Longing to feel your touch,

Your kiss upon my lips,

Your soothing voice in my ear.

Your hands, ever so soft,

Gently caressing my arm,

Ever so gently you kiss my shoulder,

Taking in the sweetness of my skin.

I turn to face you,

Wanting to kiss your sweet lips,

Realizing this all to be a fantasy...

Once again, wishing you were here.

Monster

In your nightmare you see
The monster raining down upon you
Beginning to feed upon you.
Sinking teeth into your skin,
The monster will be the one to win.
Deep inside you,
It starts the spreading.
Spreading the beast’s inner desire,
The desire to rule your world,
See you change into a beast,
Stealing souls from everyone,
No longer are you human,
But a monster you are called now
The ones that loved you,
Now they fear you.
Creature of the night
Is what you have become
Your nightmare is now your reality.

Angels...

People imagine tall, winged, and white,
That's an angel to you,
They walk among us whether you know it or not,
They walk wearing jeans and glasses too.

Angels in glasses with stringy brown hair,
They're kind, and sweet, and love to smile.
Angels in clubs playing D&D,
Let me fly with angels a while.

They're leader is a backstage guy,
A guru of light if you will,
Flights among cords and wires for stars,
Even when he's moving he's still.

Angels in stripes with tinsil teeth,
They always have bad yearbook shots,
Angels at home on Friday night,
To everyone but me he rots.

This angel, my hero, flies so high,
His wings don't even match,
In heaven he will never be alone,
He'll always have someone to catch.

Angels in scuffed boots and tapered jeans,
to society they may all be a zero.
Angels in glasses are more than that,
Each one to me is a hero

Love Is...

Love is a thing shared by two
Love is what you feel for me and you
Love is precious when its shared
Love is danger when its dared

Love wanders and searches for the one
Love plays and just do it for fun
Love lets you hear love songs to emote
Love lets you make sweet poems & a quote

Love makes the world go around
Love makes us happy if the one we love
is finally found
Love turns the world upside down
Love cheers us never with a frown

Love makes you cry
Love sacrifices and says goodbye
Love has its own reason and time
Love can make someone you love "mine"

Love makes a person kiss
Love makes a person miss
Love is experienced by all
Love conquers when you fall.

A Year

A year has come and gone,

and so many people I have known.
This one came and that one went,
so much time I had spent.

Then one August day when I was blue,
that’s when I ended up meeting you.
I sat there at my desk reading a while,
and thought to myself, “what a profile.”

I read a bit and thought, “what the heck”
not even knowing what to expect.
I hit send on that message and went on my way,
then to my surprise you said “hey.”

We talked for a while that first night,
and within you I found a beautiful light.
At first I thought “he’s too good to be true,”
little did I know what I had found in you.

For in you I found something real and true,
my dear friend I really am glad I met you.
I thought once or twice it was all for show,
Instead I found our friendship starting to grow.

I grew to love you more than a friend,
you became my family and to that love there is no end.
I took you into my family and heart and there you’ll stay,
I never really knew what I was in for that warm August day.

I’ve looked back at the time we’ve had,
all of the good, and the tiny bit of bad.
Meeting you was a true blessing I know,
since from this friendship we’ve learned how to grow.

You became the man you were meant to be,
and I learned to stand up for me.
I don’t know if you fully realize how valuable you truly are,
but without you I probably wouldn’t even have made it this far.

I still can’t believe that a year has come and gone,
and that you’ve stuck around this long.
You never cease to amaze me my friend
I truly pray our friendship never comes to an end.

Written August 10, 2008

reach

every single thing on earth is reaching
all reaching, wanting to go to heaven.
Even the trees try to reach to heaven!
I saw a tree climbing and reaching to the skies,
trying to reach, it is sick of this soil
it has grown in all of it's life.
It tried to grow as tall as it could and reach,
reach with it's bony fingers towards the skies, towards heaven.
I doubt this one will make it though, it has ran out of leaves,
and is now just grasping with the last of it's strength for heaven.
death awaits for this heaven hopeful.

There comes a time

(Written out of sheer boredom)

There comes a time in a persons' life when they realize that the world is moving forward while time seems to stand still for them. They come to realize that their friends and family are moving on without them.

After realizing this, that person comes to understand that they must let go of those they love for fear of standing in the way of their friends' future. That person hopes that the friends they have let go know that they are truly loved and that they will always be in their prayers.

Though there will be many tears shed because they don't want to let their friends go, they know it is for the best. And, if the friends refuse to be let go, it is always a welcome surprise.

No Title III

You're the sun that warms my face
You're the winds that embrace
You're the calmness the ocean sound brings
You're the beauty of flowers in the spring

You've given me hope when I didn't have any
You've given me forgiveness that I didn't deserve
You've given me more than I could ever ask for
You've even given me love when I didn't love you in return

You are my very best friend
You are my soul mate to the end
You are the love of my heart
I know we will never part.

So if you ever need me
Know that I'll be there
I want to love you the way you have loved me
I want you to know how much I care

No matter where I go or what I do
I'll spend the rest of my life
Showing how much I love you

Out of Everyone

This one I wrote for a very special friend on his birthday...

Out of everyone that I have ever met, you were there for me when I needed someone the most

Out of everyone that I have ever known, you seemed to be the only one who genuinely cared

Out of everyone that I have ever talked to, you have managed to touch me on levels that I never even knew existed

Out of all the people that I know and have known, you mean the most to me

Out of all the people that I care about, I could never be mad at you

Out of all the people that I love, you will always be my number one

On my bad days, you cheer me up without even trying

When you have bad days, I want to be there to do the same

No matter the pain, no matter how insignificant the issue is, I am here

Always

My Best Friend...

We share secrets, we laugh and even cry,
We have so much in common,
Concerns, likes and dislikes.
Ours is a relationship joined by
Tender velvet chains that link our
similar dreams of life and love.
A gentle intuition guides us in our
individual struggles to succeed
at the things we pursue, to stand
out from the crowd.

In you I have found so much of myself,
Including many of the same
Insecurities and philosophies.
Complete inner-peace and happiness,
These are the things I wish for you,
in the present and in the future
because you are my best friend.

Masks

Sitting here surrounded by many,
Yet feeling so alone;
No one aware that anything is wrong,
They don’t even seem to notice the tears;
No one bothering or taking the time to see what’s wrong,
Yet from miles away, here you come…
Sensing that something’s amiss,
Taking the time, caring enough to ask,
Trying to see behind the mask;
The mask of fake smiles… the mask of fake joy…
I know that I say “I’m fine”…
I know that I say “nothing’s wrong”…
I know I say whatever it will take to get the questions to stop,
But yet you still try to see past the mask, the mask of lies…
I wish I knew what to say,
I wish I knew how to say what’s wrong…
But the answers, they just do not come…

forever friend

With some it's all about
voiceless communication,
always knowing exactly what to say,
but never actually having to say it.
When no one seems to be listening,
you hear.
When I hurt but don't show it,
you know.
When I turn away to hide my tears,
you see.
When I feel like i can't get through to anyone,
you understand.
You flash your magical healing smile,
and I know everything will be alright.
You know just about everything there is to know about me;
You've restored my faith in people,
you've proved that there is a thingcalled true friendship...
Thank you for being a
forever kind of friend.

treasures

There are treasures in life
but owners are few
of money and power,
to buy things brand new.
Yet you can be wealthy
and feel regal, too,
if you will just look,
for the treasures in you.
These treasures in life
are not hard to find,
when you look in your heart,
your soul, and your mind.
For when you are willing
to share what's within,
your fervent search
for riches will end.
The joy and the laughter,
the smile that you bring;
the heart unafraid
to love and to sing.
The hand always willing,
to help those in need;
ones quick to reach out
to labor and feed.
So, thank you for sharing,
these great gifts inside;
the caring, the sharing,
the hugs when I cried.
Thanks for the energy,
encouragement too,
and thank you for sharing
the treasures in you...

What is a Best Friend?

What is a best friend?
A question that is commonly asked.
Well, a best friend to me is someone
that is willing to complete every task.

Someone who is there for you
when push comes to shove,
Someone who you can honestly say that you love.

They can either be female or sometimes male,
It doesn't matter,
it's whatever makes your friendship sail.

They will hold your hand
when something is wrong
or you are scared,
It will be like you didn't even know
that they cared.

When you are if you are crying,
It will also be
like a part of them is dying.

They will try their hardest
to make you feel your best,
Those are the times
that put your friendship to the test.

So, if you have a best friend,
don't hesitate to tell them
they are loved,
That you are glad they are there
when push comes to shove.

Be prepared to lend them
a helping hand,
So together you guys
can make a stand.

Always remember
the best saying of them all,
United we stand; divided we fall.

come and gone

Once we were the closest of friends,
Always sharing our lives with one another,
Yet now we’ve gone our separate ways
Each of us with different lives to live.
The bond will always be there
the friendship always intact;
But the time for us has come and gone
and the pages of time, you can't turn back.
I will always be a friend to you
and wonder how you are;
The smiles and laughter I will remember
and our fights have become painless scars.
Sometimes on those busy days
when you've a thousand things to do;
Please let me glide slowly through your mind
and spend some time with you.
In that quiet moment
when you're surprised to find me there;
Just remember even with the distance between us
I am still someone who cares.

goodbye

I came to you when I was in pain
looking for answers, I cried to you in vain.
I shared the many skeletons hiding in my heart,
I knew then you'd be my friend,
I knew it from the start.
Troubles ran like rivers, flowing through my life,
you picked the pieces up and help me through my strife.
When home wasn't home to me anymore,
you opened up your heart, and opened up the door.
We cried into night until the early morn.
We comforted each other and shared our many thorns.
As time flew and the air grew thick,
I saw our friendship fading,
And my heart, it grew sick.
The day had arrived,
when it was time to finally say it…
“Goodbye.”

unseen, unheard

A girl unseen, unheard.
A shadow against these halls.
Slipping away; oblivion waiting
Refusal puts her in limbo.
A zombie in this world; alone.
~
A life unlived awaits in her books;
Emotion awaits in her music;
"Expression-of-self" awaits in her
pen and pencil;
But nothing else awaits; No one
else awaits.
Depression comes and goes;
a loving family at home.
Something's wrong;no clue why,
A life she doesn't want; so ordinary.
Dreams of the stories she reads;
none to ever come true.
~
Her words flow with the wind; unheard.
She walks through a crowded place; unseen.
A ghost, a soul disturbed.
The pain comes and goes; friends on each side.
The tears sting her eyes.
~
A pain; a secret; a side unknown.
And they shall never be told...

Don't Cry

Don't cry little angel,
Your heart is in good hands.
Don't worry little angel,
Your tears will soon disappear.
You'll kill the pain and stand
With out fear.
Don't run little angel,
I won't let you down.
With my caress, and all the faith,
You'll forget how to frown.
Keep standing little angel,
Because I won't let you fall.
Believe it, I'll be there with
Just one call.
Don't hide little angel,
There's no need to conceal.
Don't fear what your thinking,
Don't fear what you feel.
Just sing little angel,
Let heaven hear the voice it made.
Your melody is strong,
Your harmony won't fade.
You can laugh little angel,
You just don't forget.
Laughing heals the soul,
No one's proven me wrong yet.
So smile little angel,
Release your beauty from within.
Destroy the past,
Let the future begin.
So don't cry little angel,
Because you can already see.
You can always and forever,
Forever count on me.

A Hand

A hand reaches out through the despair
No questions asked - No judgments made
From the depths, their light clears the darkness
Their soft smile brings with it a warmth
A gentle, knowing look - and hope rises.

No words need be spoken
An unconditional love is seen
Their compassion - brings me strength
And have lightened the once heavy burdens.

I emerge from the darkness whole
and with the knowledge--
That one true friend will be at my side
As we travel the hills and valleys
And continue our walk down the path of life.

I'm Sorry

How do I tell you I'm sorry -
With a gesture, a look, a touch?
I do not ask forgiveness,
I merely want to let you know.

To finally confront you,
To look you in the eye,
To face your wrath, your apathy -
Too terrified to try.

You called me selfish, I turned away,
I festered and I fled;
Cutting and wounding and lashing out,
Just to see if you bled.

Five years and forever passed
To bring us to this day,
When I present these simple words
I never thought to say.

I want you to hear those two words,
To help get rid of all the pain,
To help understand my dearest wish:
To know you once again.

The years aged me remarkably,
Though they haven't made me wise;
I do know I messed up -
For that I apologize.

Please

I pray you will consider
These words I write to you
I liked you in my life
Yet maybe now it's through

I don't want to lose you or see
our relationship come to an end
And I don't want to find our
lives standing still cause of this

Please say we aren't moving towards the end
I think we really ought to wait
Because God planted something special
Deep within our hearts

I know your life is hectic
You are busy all day through
My life is busy also
But I still think of you

I want to send my love
And remind you of these things
Just so you will know
You mean so much to me

You are my friend and family
you've been there for so long
Please don't say our friendship is over
You mean the world to me

Miss You

I miss your kind words,
--They have the power to help heal the pain.
I miss your sweet, sweet smile,
--It has the power to light up the darkest of nights.
I miss your beautiful eyes,
--They have the power to melt the coldest of hearts.
I miss your soft voice,
--It has the power to calm the wildest of storms.

I am on the verge of tears,
--My heart aches for you this day.
Why don’t you ever leave word or a note to say hi?
--Anything to let me know you thought of me today…
I see your picture every time I turn around,
--You’re in my heart; you’re in my thoughts everyday…
I guess what I’m trying to say is…
----I simply miss you.

Empty Feeling

I'm sure we all have felt like this at one point in our lives...


The time for change has begun
Things I wanted to be
Are beginning to be
I'm beginning to crawl
From my self dug ditch
Yet I still feel empty
Inside.
Things are looking up
Going in the direction
Of my hopes
And dreams
I am reaching towards the stars
Yet I still feel empty
Inside.
As the time passes
Everything falls into place
It seems to be perfect
I wait for something to go wrong
But it doesn't
Yet I still feel empty
Inside.
When will it fall
When will it crumble
I sit in the dark
Scared and waiting
For that moment.
And I still feel empty
Inside

Feelings

Feelings, what are they for?
Sure you can be happy at times, but how long does that actually last?
A day, a week, a month, a year?
What happens when the one you love says he loves someone else?
All the joy in the world seems to disappear,
And your heart is left shattered on the floor.
Happiness leaves and darkness enters,
Doubt takes the place of trust,
Nothing ends up feeling the same.
You want to find the happiness that once was.
You go and meet new people but nothing is ever the same.
You fake a smile here and force a laugh there,
You are afraid to open yourself up for fear of being hurt
So no one can truly ever know you
And if they did, would they want to?
One thing after another and you begin to wonder what the point is.
Are you ever meant to meet “The One”?
Is he even real, does he even exist?
Is love something you are meant to have,
Why does it seem to be just out of reach?
Sure you have friends that love you and care for you
But it’s just not the same.
You long for that touch,
You long for the feeling of being held.
Being held by someone that will protect you,
And be there for you.
So you go on and pretend everything is ok
So your friends don’t ask too many questions.
Talking about it is just too hard at times
And the tears just seem to flow like a river.
So you keep to yourself and put on your act
Just to make it through another day.

For a Friend

just wrote this one (literally) on the spot... i know it probably isn't that good, but i had to get my feelings and thoughts down now or lose them.

don't know what i'm doing here
ain't got much to say
don't want you to go
don't want you to stay

things have gotten crazier
since this past holiday
don't know if I'm coming or going
don't even know who led the way

i know you have your life
and i have mine
but once in a while....
i'd like to see ya if ya got the time

you are such a great person
a rare find I've been told
you are one in a million
a great man with a heart of gold

one love, one life

Wrote this from someone elses point of view... enjoy!


You are the one,
with whom I'm destined to be,
across space and time,
you are drawn to me,

One love, one life, we are destined to be,
soul mates forever throughout eternity,
In past lives I have loved you,
In this life I love you too,

And I know if I shall live again,
I am destined to love you,
across space and time, you are drawn to me,
One love, one life, we are destined to be,

Soulmates forever throughout eternity,
I know I'll always find you where ever you are,
No matter the consequence,
No matter how far,

Even in death I shall love you more,
to fuel my search to find you,
so we shall love once more,
across space and time, you are drawn to me

One love, one life, we are destined to be,
Soulmates forever throughout eternity.

Untitled III

The first essential that I notice is
The difference between them and you.
What most people don't realize is
Your panoramic view.

They don't see how you hurt inside
Or how you long for love.
They don't really see the hand
They only see the glove.

When you can look into someone's eyes
And see down into their soul,
You know that they'll be there for you
Cause it's your heart they have stole.

You are always there for me
No matter what time or day,
And for this I have you to thank
But I don't know what to say.

So these words I leave to you
With your future and your past.
For now you can go on with life
And live with peace at last.

I don't mean to bother you
I don't mean to stare,
But sometimes I can't help myself
When I see you standing there!

You Mean So Much

You mean so much to me
For you have been there through good and bad times,
Drying the tears holding back the loneliness,
Giving me a shoulder to cry on
And enough smiles to last a life time.

You mean so much to me
And I can’t help but feel as though I owe you so much.
If there is ever a way to hold and to help,
To provide and encourage.
I will be there for you.
Where ever time may take us.
I want you to remember
How much you mean to me

Missing Someone Dear

Have you ever really wondered
how much you mean to me?
I care so much for you inside
and miss you deeply.

My mind is always curious about
the way things could have been.
As days go by and time goes by,
I look back once again.

All the time I held you in my arms,
I had the whole world right there.
There you were, comforting me with
all of your charms.

Every little kiss from you
was like a dream come true.
This love that I have inside my heart,
it all belonged to you!

It's funny, all those little things
I never thought I'd miss,
Like all those conversations we had,
or the first time we kissed.

I guess that what I'm trying to say,
is I miss and love you more each day!
It hurts me not to see you,
or not to know if you're ok.

I want you to understand
that I loved you from the start.
And I want you to know,
no matter how many miles
we may be apart,
you'll always hold a special place
in my heart.

a lot on my mind...

creak of a door
light falls against the floor
a Shadow finds it's way in

there in front of me
I felt you here
in this pitch black room

screech against my window
blackness around
tears have fallen
here I am
this is where my thoughts have wound

down the street
dim lights escape
watching a ghostly street beside me

empty thoughts in my mind
broken pipes all around
a thrown glass now shattered

a cigarette lit
flick of ash
inhale the sweetness
exhale

along the corners
shadows cover my thoughts
now something new on my mind

walking in pajama's
I don't care
just time to be alone

not much of anything
lying on my floor
feeling the coldness from the cement

4:00 in the morning
caught twice
to bad I guess

standing in the blackened room
smell of cigarette
head back to my bed

Eyes...

I saw her face so long ago…
The woman that I would someday know

She speaks to me with her eyes…
Her heart, her soul, but never lies

Many times her heart has been broken
Though rarely an unkind word spoken

Through her eyes, I see her pain…
The tears she sheds fall down like rain

No Title II

As she wonders through the maze of her mind,
She holds out her hand to slow down the time.
The walls spin, the surroundings melt to the ground.
Her reality has become her illusion and
There in the middle of her chaos he stands strong,
A sturdy structure as her world crashes down around her.
She stares at him always so curious to his thoughts,
Intrigued by the fire she sees in his eyes.
She has gotten so close to feel it warm her hand,
But to afraid to burn in it,
She turns away and speeds up the time.
For she can no longer stand the pain in her heart
From the longing to touch his face-whirled back to reality,
A single tear runs down her face
For a love she never had,
But can feel the loss…

Hard to Smile

You know, sometimes, it's hard to smile
as you find yourself lying in a ditch
next to the road of life,
clothes torn and a cut lip.
Sometimes it's hard to smile
as the cars fly past your tattered body
making their obligatory eye contact
as they pray they don't contract
your ill luck - it can be hard to smile,
just once in a while
as the blood flows from your soul
and no one notices
or offers a bandage -
yeah, it can be hard to smile...

Broken Pieces

A broken heart has many pieces,
Each has a need of it's own.
And as each need is finally met,
your heart once again finds a home.

But everytime a heart gets broke
it seems a piece gets lost,
and before you are willing to love again,
you must stop to count the cost.

I see people searching in the ashes
of a fire that once burned bright.
Hoping to find a hot coal or two,
to change the wrong back to right.

They reach out to touch a flame,
only to find out that it is cold.
Then they realize it is just a reflection
of the flame, you yourself hold.

What can I say? What can I do?
I see a broken piece or two.
I know that it is hard to erase
all the pain and leave not a single trace.

If I could have one wish today,
I would wish all your pain away
If I could have one wish for you,
I would wish all your dreams come true.

But wishes and dreams are two of a kind.
Fantasies, Illusions, and Games in the mind.
But there is one thing that I can do.
I will reach out and touch a broken piece or two.

And if by my touch that you will receive,
May all of your needs be relieved.

It Is...

It's a feeling of emptiness,
That won't go away,
Playing with your emotions,
Day after day.

It's standing in a room,
Not knowing where to sit,
Worrying that where you do,
You simply just won't fit.

It's a feeling which you can't escape,
However hard you try,
And the longer that it lasts for,
The more you want to cry.

It's counting minutes go slowly by,
Because you've nothing else to do,
But sit and watch others laugh,
And wish that you could too.

Silence

Silence builds an awful wreckage of a girl
It feeds on loneliness and creates a void
Gray shadows haunt and torment and torture
A woman is stricken and destroyed

There is no sound of laughter or happiness here
The little one has thrown in the towel today
Somber, melancholy moods decay the soul
It is futile to hope and dream and pray

Emptiness builds a home in this woman
In this girl, this child where hollows have bred
A deepening sea of nowhereness consumes
And eats away at every connecting thread

Confusion feeds like a savage inside her,
Leaving nothing considered worthy remains
Destined to walk through life less ordinary
Alone, exiled, different and disdained

The Guest

Is loneliness a state of mind
A place where people go,
To escape the cruelness of mankind
And soothe their aching souls?
Now being alone isn't loneliness,
Just how you choose to be.
But lonely is the most alone
That one could ever be.

It erases dreams & takes your goals
To a place so far away...
That the window of escape revolts
And hides from light of day.

The darkness is the worst for pain
And sleep so hard to come.
Like endless days of chilling rain
Just grasping for some sun.

It seems to speak without a sound
And chokes you with its words.
You feel it closing in around,
Your silent cries unheard.

Surrounding you just like a fog
It brings its friend "depressed".
And if you let it, loneliness
Will be your full-time guest.

The Cycle

As darkness falls upon me,
I feel the dreaded feeling that
encompasses my whole being
and fills me with emptiness.
Those feelings rush in...
the ones that leave me exhausted
from trying to fight and win
a battle that is raging my entire body.

Cries for help go unheard.
The pain far outweighs anything
that anyone can ever relate to.
Very few know this kind of pain.

As hard as the physical pain is,
the other pain is so much deeper.
It stems from a rejection that others can't fathom.
It is unbearable but somehow makes me stronger.

It is becoming increasingly difficult
to hide the demon that has taken over.
Trying to act normal is a struggle and only
makes others question my conveyed helplessness.

Being alone is comforting...
I can cry and nobody will pity me.
I have become my own best friend
and I love and hate myself concurrently.

Judgement comes from all sides
and has taken so much from my soul.
I haven't the strength to fight much longer,
yet the only answer is not an option.

Sleep is so difficult.
The unconscious mind is as full of pain
as my body and nothing will mask it.
Please, I must rest and sleep in order to fight.

As the darkness fades to light
I am once again facing another battle.
Sunshine helps to focus but fighting alone
has still left me in the daytime dark.

My thoughts are jumbled, my head a fog...
it keeps me from being who I am.
Many do not know the real me...
You possibly never will.

I see and feel and think things that I hate.
My brain is full of garbage.
What once was functioning brilliantly
is now filled with mindless trails of sorrow.

The days are short and empty
with few bright spots to sustain me.
As the sun lowers in the west, I find myself
once again facing the darkness that I despise.

And so the cycle begins again,
the cycle of highs and lows,
pain and more pain, the actions of a fool...
so much that I can't remember from day to day.

Love

Love gives us the power
The power to get through it all
Love is the answer
The arms in which we fall

The one who touches our hearts
Be that person he or she, whatever
Embrace their love, lay down your cards
Hold on to them forever

Feel that glow from within
That tingling warmth inside
It’s life’s medicine
There’s nothing to hide

There’s no greater force
Than two lovers together
As your life takes its course
Remember that love lasts forever.

If

So many things
run through my head.
When it comes to you,
and the things that you've said.

So many wonderful,
memories rush through.
When it comes to the person you are,
and the great things you do.

I can’t take your face, smile, or laugh,
out of my mind.
I just can’t do it,
when I know that your mine.

I love to look at the pictures,
of your oh so handsome face.
I can just imagine
your warm, loving embrace.

I really don’t know
what I would do.
If you weren’t around,
and if I wasn’t with you.

Ready

Take my hand and lead the way;
tell me all you want to say.
Whisper softly in my ear,
all those things I want to hear.

Kiss my lips and touch my skin;
bring out passions deep within.
Pull me close and hold me near;
take away my pain and fear.

In the darkness of the night,
be my beacon, shine your light.
In the brightness of the sun,
show me that you are the one.

Give me wings so I can fly;
for I can soar when you're nearby.
Enter my heart, break down the wall,
it's time for me to watch it fall.

I've been a prisoner, can't you see?
Break my chains and set me free.
Strip me of my armor tight;
you'll find I won't put up a fight.

Release my soul held deep within...
I'm ready now, let love begin.

just another day without you

I'm trying to get up,
but this invisible wall keeps me down.
Happiness never liked me much,
but I’m not yet drowned.

One thing keeps me going,
to continue my life living,
to keep my heart going,
to keep on forgiving.

I stare into the mirror,
there’s no one standing next to me.
I just need you next to my reflection,
it's the single thing that would set me free.

Free from the hate in this world.
Free from all the fighting.
But it's not going to happen,
at least not anytime soon.

It's just another day,
with gaps though my fingers.
It's just another day,
that my heart must wait and ache.

It's just another day,
without your arms around me.
It's just another day,
of being by myself.

It's just another day without you.

I’m trying to free me head from all these thoughts,
Trying to drone it out by expressing myself,
Yet nothing is ridding this stress.

All of these love songs,
and all of TV’s chick flicks,
they really aren’t helping me with my sorrows,
There just causing my heart more conflicts.

Life was terrible till I saw you,
it lightened up but it’s not yet complete,
I need you right by me side 24/7,
I want your kiss so sweet.

I just want you back in my life...

Easier

It’s easier for you to walk away, than it is for you to reach out to me.
It’s easier for you to look away, than it is for you to see the depth of my despair.
It’s easier for you to look through me, than it is for you to see “me.”
It’s easier for you to distance yourself, than it is for you to really care.
It’s easier for you to hear, than it is for you to listen.
It’s easier for you to judge, than it is for you to understand.
It’s easier for you to label, than it is to get acquainted.
It’s easier for you to bask in your joy, than it is for you to feel my pain.
It’s easier for you to bewilder at my mysteries, than it is for you to probe deeply into the depths of my soul.
It’s easier for me to look away, than it is to let you see the feelings betrayed through my eyes.
It’s easier for me to cry, than it is for me to talk.
It’s easier for me to push you away, than it is for me to be held.
It’s easier for me to distance myself, than it is to trust that you won’t hurt me.
It’s easier for me to die, than it is for me to face life’s challenges.
It’s hard for me to smile when I am hurting.
It’s hard for me to talk when you won’t understand.
It’s hard for me to reach out when I need help the most.

Shyness...

In my shyness…
At times I retreat to my “shell,”
Clinging to the security of being alone.

In my shyness…
I may attempt to merge with my surroundings—
To be ignored, unnoticed, a silent voice rarely heard.

In my shyness…
I can feel completely alone,
Although surrounded by people.

In my shyness…
I’m perceived as having a padlocked soul—
And few try to gain entry to my realm.

In my shyness…
Few will dare to venture to really know me—
To hear my quiet voice or to really try to understand.

In my shyness…
I can have a myriad of words to say,
Yet, my sealed lips will not release them.

In my shyness…
The words I do speak will at times be jumbled,
And I’ll feel worse for having spoken them.

In my shyness…
I will be viewed as “stuck up” and unfriendly,
Labeled by the presumption of a troubled past.

Yet, despite my shyness…
I will at times emerge from my “shell,”
And you may catch a glimpse of who I am.

And despite my shyness…
I may put on a good “front,”
Disguising my innermost insecurities.

Despite my shyness…
A select few will manage to penetrate these “walls,”
With the sharing of time and the evolving of trust.

My shyness…
Frequently unrecognized, seldom understood—
A shackle, a haven, a veil.

We All...

We all have situations,
Our own ups and downs,
There are different times,
For our smiles and our frowns..

We all are loved,
By someone or another,
Whether it be family,
A friend or a lover...

We all have someone,
Something to love for,
And with each passing day,
We each need them more...

We all have our reasons,
Own opinions and our faults,
But none of these things
should bring relationships to a halt..

We are all individuals,
And that needs to be respected,
Find out who your friends are,
They need to be detected...

Keep the ones who matter,
Hold on to the ones who care.

Part of Me

You're a part of me
I can't let go
You're a part of me
I can't control
If I could
You would be here now
Holding each other
Till the sun goes down
It's hard without you
By my side
We were meant for one another
Like Bonnie & Clyde
As long as it takes
To make them see
Nothing can tear us apart
We were meant to be
We belong together
Our hearts beat as one
That's why we stand out
Brighter than the sun
I’m not gonna let you go
You are mine
Every time I think about losing you
I break down and cry
I can see us together
Growing old
You are everything
You're my heart
You're my soul
I’m never walking away
From the one I truly love
Every night I pray
To that wonderful man above
He's the one
That shines our star so bright
No matter where you are
I know he's got you in sight
He lets me know
That I’m the one
You love to love
He whispers in my ear
You're the one he's thinking of
That man up there
Has got to be pretty clever
He told me he just realized
I’m gonna love you Forever

Words...

I sit here with my mouth flustered..

Attempting to be eloquent with my words and with my phrases..

Trying to sum up and define the feelings I have for you…

Looking for adjectives and adverbs to equate you with..

That is an impossibility.

It would be a futile attempt to do so.

You may as well ask me stop the sun from shining,

Because that would be a much easier task…

I can’t find a word to describe

How by staring into your eyes can ease my soul,

Release my fears, stress, and wash away my pain..

Leaving me with only one thought, which is you.

The elegantly smooth and soft caress of your lips on mine,

Just barley touching, just slightly moving,

Yet still feeling like everything surrounding us disappears

Leaving only our mouths locked together in an endless moment.

When we wrap our arms around each other,

Pressing our bodies closer together

Your breath carries your melodic voice to my accepting ear

As you whisper 3 words that create undiscovered feelings in my heart…

I whisper them back and hope you feel the same,

Looking into your eyes, kissing your lips and holding you close.

A smile so obvious and blissful creeps onto my face..

And finally my puzzle is solved realizing that you are the one

i wish

I wish there was a place
That I could go
Where I would be free to do anything
A place with no worries
Where I could run for miles
Feel the grass between my toes
The wind on my face
The sun on my skin
Where I could look up and see
The sun amongst the clouds
The stars and the moon at night
Where I could see for miles
With no worries
No fears
Nothing sad to think about
Nothing to cloud my mind
Where I would be free to release my emotions
Where I could scream and shout
As much as I want
With no loneliness
With no worries
With no sadness
With all happiness
With pure freedom
Where I could sprout wings and fly
Off into the distance
And feel so light
And feel so free
And feel so happy
For the rest of my life

tears

The tears, they fall unfettered and pure
Pouring out pain that nothing can cure
Tumbling, cascading like the waterfall
The vivid mark of agony's call
Those salty drops of feminine curse
Trapped under weight, day by day growing worse
No one to catch them, no one to see
No one else lost in this hell-hole but me
Screaming in terror at the walls, closing in
Dropping to my knees; my head starts to spin
Feeling the rage within growing strong
What in the hell have I done that's so wrong?
The quickness of breath and the tightness of chest
I have endured through it all; gave it my best
Fighting needlessly, years upon years
Left in the clutches of multiple fears.
Fears instilled with the greatest of care
To cause me to snap; my soul to lay bare
Stuck inside this glass house of mine
I stare out at a world that could be just fine
Sighing, i realize it will never be me
Form this bondage I can't be set free
Held tight in the grasp of anger and hate
Painfully avoiding the view of my fate
Hearing the heart in my breast tear once more
I shudder to think of those who came before
Pressing the steel to my flesh, I push with a shout
I sit, no more tears, as my life force flows out.

A True Friend

A true friend never walks away
A true will always stay
A true friend looks out for you
A true friend will guard your secrets
Like a precious gift
A true friend is there for you
To give you a helpful lift
A true friend tries to make you smile
Tries to replace that frown
They may not always succeed
But they rarely let you down
These arms for you are open
This heart for you does care
And when I think you need me
I'll try to always be there
I'll listen to your fears
I promise not to laugh
Comfort your falling tears
I'll make this friendship last
I'll keep you near to my heart
I'll always hold you dear
Even when we're miles apart
I hope I am to you
Everything you are to me
For the friendship we have
Is a special one indeed.

Never Alone

You're never alone, I'm always near,
When your troubled, down or blue.
All you have to do is call me,
I'm always here for you.
It doesn't matter where I'm at,
It doesn't matter when.
When you need someone to talk to,
I'm here to be your friend.
If you need someone to hold your hand,
or a hug to say I care.
If you need a shoulder to cry on,
for you I will be there.
So never think you are a burden,
when the weight gets to be to much.
You might find if look hard enough,
a good friend could be the right touch.
You're never alone, I'm always here,
through the good times and the bad.
I'm always here to be your friend,
I don't like to see you sad.

Remember

When you need a shoulder to cry on,
Remember that I have a warm embrace,
Ready to offer comfort.

When you think I'm being too tough,
Remember that which does not kill you
Makes you stronger.

When you need a friend to listen,
Remember that I am here for you,
Always.

When you lose faith in yourself,
Remember that I never did,
Nor ever will.

White Rose

In the storm
Stands the white rose
tumultuous waves
of destruction abound him

Yet tall is the white rose
strong in the face
Of the sensed doom around him
And he does not bow down

Pure is the white rose
In the compost earth
growing eternal strength
in the nights that so hurt

I see not the white rose
He is so far away
But I long to protect him
But only the words can I say

So I send him my words
And my poets heart
To help him when
there is hope to see him through

Be Strong little flower
Your heart will guide true
And as long as you want
I will always talk to you

The Day I Met You

The day I met you

I found a friend -

And a friendship that

I pray will never end.

Your smile - so sweet

And so bright -

Kept me going

When day was as dark as night.

You never ever judged me,

You understood my sorrow.

Then you told me it needn't be that way

And gave me the hope of a better tomorrow.

You were always there for me,

I knew I could count on you.

You gave me advice and encouragement

Whenever I didn't know what to do.

You helped me learn to love myself

You made life seem so good.

You said I can do anything I put my mind to

And suddenly I knew I could.

There were times when we didn't see eye to eye

And there were days when both of us cried.

But even so we made it through:

Our friendship hasn't yet died.

This friendship we share

Is so precious to me,

I hope it grows and flourishes

And lasts unto infinity.

You are so extra-special to me

And so this to you I really must tell:

You are my one true friend,

My Guardian Angel.

Our friendship is one-in-a-million

So let's hold on to it and each other.

We cannot let this chance of pure bliss fly away

For there will never be another.

the light in my life

Into the dim lit, bare walls of my world,
You entered, bringing light and life to me,
The vivid colors, painted with a swirl
Of wit and charm, of personality,
With tender care, you added comfort, warmth,
And images that line the now bright walls.
I look upon them fondly, bringing forth
A thankfulness that you walk in these halls
With me; our friendship has become a part
Of my world now; it has its special place,
Within my being, life, and in my heart,
Your name hangs right beside your smiling face.
Remembering just how drab these walls had been,
I have to thank you for the light, my friend.

The Light In Your Path

If I was one thing, I'd be a candle
Lighting the way so you can handle
Your life easier without woes
Not having to fight with your foes.

I'd help keep you from stumbling over
Things blocking your path to an open door.
If I light your path, life is easier,
Even strong winds, my light will not deter.

No matter what, I'm here for you
To cheer you up when you are blue.
Do not fret when times get tough,
If things look down or kind of rough.

Just remember, I'm always here,
In your heart, close and near.
I will help you out in every way,
Happiness and love in your heart will stay.

Don't blow me out, that's one request
Unless it's me you do detest.
I do not try to hurt anyone
That isn't good or any fun.

But one day you may leave me behind
You may no longer need my light to shine.
If that day comes, go on your way
And I will hope to see you again one day.

If one day, I don't appear,
Do not worry, do not fear
I may be gone, but in your heart
The light I gave you did not depart.

It will be there forever and a day
To always bring happiness and light your way.

Thank You For Listening

Thank you for always being there,
To listen and understand me.
I appreciate all you did for me,
And all you still do.

Thank you for making me feel whole again,
For putting my pieces back together.
I appreciate you putting my life back together,
You saved my life.

You may not understand,
Why I do what I do.
But you never criticized,
You just helped my through.

I knew I could come to you when I was down,
'cause I knew you'd always be there
to pick me back up
and say everything will be ok.

His Storm

I see the clouds rolling in and oh how it looks like rain

And it is always I fight for the welcome change

When it rains it pours on this heart of mine

So, I take the storms I feel to him each time.



But I know he has lived under his own pouring rain

Yet under his water his heart still doesn't change

He can walk away from what hangs overhead

And, not in his storm, are words left unsaid.



Not in his storm have I ever felt alone

His storm ends, so I, may find my way home

It's for others that he pushes away his own rain

So, that I many find comfort in calling his name.



He lives in this world for the sake of another's heart

God, how he eases the miles when worlds apart

And he never wanders when your world falls through

Not ever in his storm would he do this to you.



He has wings that I know not only I can see

Cause only an angel could find strength to carry me

It's the way that the eyes can surely view

How his heart's written so clearly in what an angel can do.



Not in his storm is his work ever done

And even in his storm he hands many the sun

When his world is dark - We always have light

And now how I hold the new color of night.



He takes then he gives to an unhappy face

So that many can find an awesome place

I have been able to love him more every day

And with his hand in mine the clouds roll away.



Not in any storm that I will ever live beneath

Could ever change what I hold here inside of me

Not in any of his storms have I lost my angels touch

To that angel out there, I love him so much.

For My Friends...

Days were filled with tears
Moments were filled with pain
Thoughts were filled with memories
Dreams were filled with nightmares

Till not long ago I though it was impossible
To find the friend most search for all their life
I lost so many friends as years came and went
After all I've been through
After all those who left my life

I never thought I'd find a friend as good as the ones I've lost
A friend who'd be by my side and who'd listen to my thoughts
Maybe these are just words
Maybe it'll all change with time

Even though we only know each other from far, far away
Even though the Internet is the only communication we share
I Trust you more with every word
I would stand by your side when no one else would
I would tell you the truth even though it might hurt

The words I'm trying to say is that you are one of my true friends
You know what I feel, you know my little ways,
You never judge me, you never have.

You're there for me to wipe the tears
You're always there to lend a ear
Maybe someday you'll forget my face, you'll forget who I am,
But I will always know to be true
That there aren't many friends as good as you

real friends

Come baby and hold my hand
Come with me and i will show you
What a real friend should be
When everything sees to go wrong
Call me day or nightI will be the one you can lean on
I will never leave your side
So when you need someone
Or just feeling low
You know what to do
Just let me know
And I will be there for you...

Nothing Girl

Maybe I wear baggies

and white socks with flip-flops,

maybe I don't like listening to rave

and I'm not on the social mountaintops,

maybe I don't care about the things

that make your worlds twirl,

maybe you look at me and think:

Gee, what a nothing girl.



Maybe I like giving smiles

which seems to be a sin today,

and maybe I allow my imagination

to sometimes run away,

maybe you don't understand this

and that's why you cannot see,

if this make me a nothing girl,

hey, that's ok with me!



The world makes you believe

your personality mustn't be detected,

your face must be picture perfect

and wear cloths just the best, to be accepted.

Maybe I look at youand feel sorry that you're blind,

robots you have became,

yourself you'll never find.

Family

Our family many homes,
Our hair is brown,
Our hair is blonde,
Our eyes are brown,
Our eyes are blue,
Our skins are different
Colors, too.

We're men and women,
We're big and small,
We're young and old,
We're short and tall.
We're everything
That we can be
And still we are
A family.

We laugh and cry,
We work and play,
We help each other
Every day.
The world's a lovely
Place to be
Because we are A family.

One

One song can spark a moment. One flower can wake the dream.
One tree can start a forest. One bird can herald spring.
One smile begins a friendship. One handclasp lifts a soul.
One star can guide a ship at sea. One word can frame the goal.
One sunbeam lights a room. One candle wipes out darkness.
One laugh will conquer gloom. One step must start each journey.
One word must start each prayer. One hope will raise our spirits.
One touch can show you care. One voice can speak with wisdom.
One heart can know what’s true. One life can make the difference!

simple and sweet

You're...
My friend,
my companion,
through good times and bad
my friend,
my buddy,
through happy and sad,
beside me you stand,
beside me you walk,
you're there to listen,
you're there to talk,
with happiness,
with smiles,
with pain and tears,
I know you'll be there,
throughout the years!

for an ex

You piss me off
Fuck your lies

Don’t pull that shit
It’s a waste of time

I’ll never believe you
Your words mean nothing

Like broken glass
It’s only good for cutting

So go cut yourself
When you think of me

All the lies you told
You deserve to bleed

I gave you my trust
What a dumb thing to break

That you can’t mend
It builds over time

Sorry friend
You crossed that fine line

All has been said
But nothing forgotten

To forgive this time
Is just not an option

I’ve had all I can take
No more pretend

It’s over, it’s done
This is the end.

two simple words...

Thank you for listening,
Thank you for sharing,
Thank you for caring.
Thank you for everything you do,
Thank you for advice,
Thank you for being true,
Thank you for being you.
Thank you for your trust,
Thank you for keeping secrets,
Thank you for being there when I needed you.
Thank you for helping me through my problems,
Thank you for being a true friend.

What You Are To Me

I am a rose, you are my thorns,
clutching me, protecting me,
I am the sun; you are my rays,
helping me to shine and to be all that I can.
I am a lake; you are my water,
filling me with ideas, dreams, and hopes for the future.
I am a tree, you are my leaves,
sharing who and what I am
and becoming an important part of my life.
I am a heart; you are my beat,
beating rhythmically to my happiness,
my fear, my sadness, my excitement.
I am me and you are with me,
to share all that I am,
to share life, love, and happiness

Friends are Forever

Friends are forever
Keep them in your heart
‘cause you never know
If that day comes to part
If they’re your friend
You will know
By the way they smile,
And the way they glow
Every day is a book of memories
A smile to show
A tear of love
And a laugh to grow
This day will leave
Another to come,
But your friends will stay,
Until you’re done.

No Title

When I wake up in the morning,
I have courage and hope.
Hope that the day ahead,
will be better than the last.

But every day, it's the same.
It seems everybody knows my name.
It's like the taunting will never stop.
I wish my head would just pop.

Every day the same old strain,
my hopes and dreams are always slain,
It just keeps getting worse and worse,
Maybe it's a curse.

People treat me like a rat,
All because I'm a little fat.
Suddenly my life goes down,
Everyday I wear a frown.

What do I do?
What can I do?
Then suddenly
I think of you.

You who were always their for me,
Who got in trouble because of me,
But you were never ever angry at me,
My very best friend, you'll always be.

My Angel, My Friend

I never thought that I would find
a friend so great and a friend so kind
I look up to you in every way
'cause I learn something from you every day.

Without you I don't know where I'd be
but you're still here, friends with me
you deserve so much more than I can give
but without you I wouldn't live.

You've given me more than money can buy
and for you I'd give my all and I would die
This feeling I feel gets stronger every day
hoping not to screw it up, I constantly pray.

I know we have our problems every now and then
but once it's fixed our friendship is better times ten
and I want you to know that I truly do care
even in fights when I say things that aren't fair.

You're an angel from God up above
and I'm thankful for your understanding love
because when you're around everything seems right
and for you, until the end, I will fight.

It doesn't matter what you do or say
because you'll be my friend anyway
I know the real you that's down deep inside
and in you, I'll always confide.

Thanks for being the friend you are
you're my best friend, an angel by far
everything in you is an inspiration to do great
and you'll be loved by all cause that's your fate!

So never stop being the real and wonderful you
cause God shines through in all that you do
and whenever it seems like I'm never there
remember this: I love you and I'll always care!

Once

Once in every lifetime, someone comes along,
The one special heart
You've been waiting for your whole life long.

Once in every lifetime, God sends an angel from above,
To make your life complete
Who you can give you endless love.

When a love like this comes, make any sacrifice,
For the best things in life
Seldom come along twice.

There is no love that compares to yours and mine,
A love from heaven that only comes
Once In Every Lifetime.

Too A Couple of Old Friends

You came into my life when
I really needed a friend
You are one who I can talk to
And I know you’ll always care
My love for you is like one of family
You’re like a little brother to me
And so I will always protect you
Our bond is never ending
It’s only going to get stronger
With every hard time
And memory we share
If you call me I will come
To lend a helping hand
Or just an ear I will guide you in direction
As you do me
This is my soul solemn promise
To with my heart yours to keep
I promise to always be here
Forever and to the end
You are the true definition of
My Very Best Friend!

Friend

I would like to say that this one has more meaning to me now more than it ever did before. Since this one was written I have had the chance to meet a very special lady who I am happy to call my friend.

When a tear glistens down your cheek

A friend is always there to offer you a shoulder to cry on

When a tear glistens down your cheek

A friend is always there to wipe them away

When a tear glistens down your cheek

A friend is always there to hold you in time of pain

They hold you tight in a hug offering a kind word or two

If your day is overcast in grey and you can't seem to find the light

A friend is always there trying to help you find the sun again

They give encouragement and support every step of the way

A friend is there to put a smile on your face seeing you frown

They crack a light hearted joke in hopes of seeing your face light up in a smile

When you're having problems a friend is always there

They open there arms for comfort and their ears trying to understand

They offer a prayer in hopes that everything will be okay

When your world seems so far upside down and there seems like there is no hope

and the world seems so dark a friend is there

When the clouds threaten to over come your life

A friend brushes them away showing you the goodness of the sun

They always encourage you and never put you down no matter how stupid the question

They always find ways to uplift you in the simplest

When it seems no one truly cares or no one seems to understand your pain

A friend shows up to be with you in your time of need

They may not always know what to say, or they may not even relate, but they feel your pain

The painful secrets and lies that tear at your heart

A friends sits with you as you pour out your pain

A friend is someone you can trust to keep your secrets without having to double guess

They have your best interest at heart

They want to see you happy and succeed as someone great

When you have no one else to talk to

A friend is always there for you willing to listen

If you call in the middle of the night needing to talk

They will always be there for you, there to listen

When rain threatens to fall into your life

Know that a friend will always be there for

To protect you from the hurt and pain

When it seems like you're about to drown

Call on a friend they will always be there to pull you out of the raging water

When it seems like you can no longer hold

Know that a friend loves you

Know that you have a friend who will supports you

When it seems that you're about to loose your faith

Run to a friend

They will always be by your side praying for you

Encouraging you to see God in times of pain

Through all the hard times life throws at you

A friend is always there for you

A friend is always beside you holding your hand when you shake in fear.

They hear your cries when no one else seems to hear them.

They see your pain when no one else takes the time to notice.

Friends are there for you in the good as well as the bad

They love to see you smile

To see you laugh at the sillies things and to act like a little kid again

Friends gossip together in their little groups

Talking about the hottest guy in school

Or making plans to hang out at the mall or see the latest Orlando Bloom movie

Friendship is like a tight sisterhood secrets are told and kept your always there for each other no matter what

A friend

A friend is someone who is always there for you in the good and bad

They bring out the best in you

A friend rejoices with you in your joy and cries with you in your pain

They can keep the darkest of secrets

Share a laugh or a memory

A friend is always there for you in good and bad

A friend is always there...

Betrayal...

I thought I could trust you, but now I know I can't.
A friendship is built on trust and I thought that ours was.
But now I realized you've changed and our friendship is now at stake.
We made a promise that I thought we would keep for life.
But you showed me you couldn't hold the end of your bargain
When you decided to break that promise that was meant to be for life.
How could you have hurt me the way that you did?
I trusted you, my very own best friend.
You betrayed me and broke the pact that was never to be broken.
I can't even stand being around you cause when I look at you I see nothing but betrayal.
I would have never hurt you the way you did me.
I would have never betray our friendship the way that you did.
But I for one know, that this friendship shall never be the same again.
You made a big mistake the day you decided to betray this friendship.
I thought I was over the hurt and the anger, but I'm not.
Only time will tell when that will be.
Nothing hurts more, then when your best friend decides to stab you in the back.
Someday I will get over the pain that you have caused me, but right now the pain and anger is still with me.
But there was a lesson in our friendship and it took me awhile to find out what it was.
The day you decided to break the pact, was the day I realized that I never really had a true friend in you.
Thank you for showing me what kind of friend I really had.

Betrayed

A friend betrayed is a weight on the soul too heavy to bear
The hurt of the other a hurt of the self.
Through the ignorance of one foolish person,
Pain and hurt is ignited in the other, unknowingly, undeserved.
When that hurt is realized, it is flashed back to the Foolish multiplied ten thousand
But added is the guilt, the heavy burden.
Love is there, known only to the Foolish with the regret
Not seen by the Betrayed, as the haze of pain and hurt interferes.
How to shine the light of love through that haze?
How to receive an undeserved forgiveness from the Betrayed if not from the Self?
Forgiveness from the Betrayed means the world
But a forgiveness from the Self can never be granted.

The friendship means more than words can explain
A deterioration of that special relationship is a destruction of the Foolish
Slowly yet surely it kills, more painful than any other death imaginable.
The Foolish is no longer foolish or ignorant, but sees for the first time.
That is why the tears fall and soul cries
Not for the Foolish heart, but for that of the Betrayed.

For in the eyes of the Betrayed is seen the beauty of the soul deep within,
A beauty so great, so unique, so wonderful and loved.
But shining through is the hurt and pain
In it's sadness increasing the beauty multiple.
Never did any equal to this beauty exist, and there never will.
Only the most foolish of the the foolish would not see, and the Foolish is no longer.

My Final Sin...

When insecurities rise
And all your passion inside dies
I cant seem to fall asleep without crying
All those around me lying

Father time tic tocking away
Wasted day by day
In a cage trapped by my own fears
Always hiding back the tears

Trying to make the best of it
Never the courage to make the final split
Doing whats best for others
As would any good mother

Never doing anything for myself
Putting my hopes and dreams on the backshelf
Resentment rising to the top
Fits of rage not knowing how to make them stop

Wanting more out of life
Tension so thick you could cut it with a knife
Yelling Screaming Arguing it never stops
Neighbors threatning to call the cops

Thats it never again will i allow myself to be hurt
Dig a hole bury my feelings deep in the dirt
From now on I will have thick skin
Never loving again will be my final sin

For My Best Friend

Even though we have never met,
I feel a bond between us.
A bond that should have taken years to build,
Yet was built in a month or two.
A bond that lifelong friends should have,
Although most never do.
A bond that I am glad to share with you...
My Friend and Confidant.

You are not here in body and soul,
But as a lighted rectangle.
You come to me every day as
A message on my screen,
A message that I can rely on
To cheer me up and make my day.
Through a keyboard we share
Our ups and downs.

I have opened my inner self to you,
And you have to me as well.
We have traded secrets and laughs,
As well as sorrows and pain.
I have never met you, but feel as if
I have known you most of my life.
To most this might sound silly,
But I assure them, it is not.

Untitled II

I've heard it said don't go to bed
while hanging on to sorrow,
you may not have the chance to laugh
with those you love tomorrow.

You may not mean the words you speak
when anger takes its toll,
you may regret your actions
once you've lost your self-control.

When you've lost your temper
and you've said some hurtful things,
think about the heartache
that your actions sometime bring.

You'll never get those moments back,
such precious time to waste,
and all because of things you said
in anger and in haste.

So if you're loving someone
and your pride has settled in,
you may not ever have the chance
to say to them again...

"I love you and I miss you
and although we don't agree,
I'll try to see your point of view,
please do the same for me."

As I Sit...

As I sit and write these words on the page,
I feel so weak and tired I can't stand.
Why do I feel like I am in a cage?
And no one seems to truly understand.

Sometimes I'm up and the sky's the limit;
I'm hyper so I want to laugh and sing.
Then it seems like nothing could alter it.
Found my joy and to it will always cling.

Now comes the crash of my sleepless, stressed days.
Everything seems to make me blow my top.
Just when I think I have ended my craze,
Something else happens and again I drop.

I know that the solution would be sleep.
Halt procrastination to help this plight.
But to control it would be quite a leap.
And I can't see that kind of strength in sight.

Here I go again with grief: nothing new.
I am beginning to abhor this ride.
I feel helpless. There's nothing I can do.
If only I could run and sleep and hide.

Untitled I

A friend is someonewho listens and cares,
a friend is someonewho's always there.
A friend brings happiness
that can warm and mend.
I'm glad that I cancall you a friend.
A lot of people haveentered my life,
but one thing remains true...
I've never met a single soul
who has touched my heart like you.

Thank you for being a friend

I Noticed Today...

I noticed today
My smile seems brighter.
When I walk- it's a bit more brisk.
And the sun seems less oppressive and more...
"shiny"

I noticed today
my whole world is less tragic,
And filled with a few more rainbows.
I feel...
"lighter"

I noticed today
I have a true friend.
Knowing this makes everything...
better.

Smiling, my face to the bright sun,
I whistle as I walk,
And let my heart hum a happy tune.
I noticed today
I have you.

A Friend...

A friend is always there
near or far they always care

A friend will comfort you when you are having a bad day
And they will say "Don't worry everything will be ok!!"

A friend can color the sky blue
And make the day brighter and new

A friend will bring you up when you are feeling down
And make you laugh when you want to frown

A friend shares a special love
And it is a miracle from above

A friend always leaves a mark
embedded deep within your heart

Something Old...

why do we love
when it hurts so much
wouldn't it be easier
if we never so attached
there would be no time spent
thinking of the hurt
and hurting more for it
if we are not feeling so down
we could do moresee more
perhaps be more
why do we search for love
when it is wroght with heartache
while looking we risk much
we risk the waste of time
we risk our livesour heart
our mindour bodywe risk ourselves
why do we risk so much?
Why do we love?
Because the joy of loving someone knows no bounds
our hearts need love to be whole
our minds need loves unconditional acceptance
our bodys need to be touched as only love can
those moments in our lives that we are love
dare worth the painare worth the risk
are worth anything
in essence what is life without love

You Are...

You are friendly, kind and caring
Sensitive, loyal and understanding
Humorous, fun, secure and true
Always there... yes that's you.

Special, accepting, exciting and wise
Truthful and helpful, with honest brown eyes
Confiding, forgiving, cheerful and bright
Yes that's you... not one bit of spite.

You're one of a kind, different from others
Generous, charming, but not one that smothers
Optimistic, thoughtful, happy and game
But not just another... in the long chain.

Appreciative, warm and precious like gold
Our friendship won't tarnish or ever grow old
You'll always be there, I know that is true
I'll always be here... always for you.

When You Love Someone

When you love someone so deep inside,
It seems like it's so easy to hide.
You've loved him for so very long,
You would think he could do no wrong.

Every day you would hope and pray
That he would always stay this way.
He treated you like you should be treated;
You thought your life was finally completed.

You thought your love was growing true,
And then one day it was all so blue.
He started putting you down and it hurt,
You thought all you were to him was dirt.

He started ignoring you and you wondered why;
All you wanted to do was curl up and die.
You thought your relationship would never end,
But that was all so fake and pretend.

One night he was so sweet to you,
You thought all those things were maybe untrue,
Two days later he was back the same,
You thought you were the one to blame.

He thought the relationship was getting too serious
And that you had become a little too curious.
By this time you knew it wouldn't last,
All the nice things he said were in the past.

You thought that you would marry him some day,
But this time God wanted to get his way.
You wanted things back how they were before,
But you knew this couldn't happen anymore.

It was a Saturday night about ten o'clock,
You heard the news and it wasn't a shock.
You knew this was going to happen soon,
As you laid there and cried in the pale lit moon.

I Once Saw...

I once saw a man with perfect brown eyes,
It wasn't just the size but the color of his soul
Reflected so hard that my heart almost stopped beating.
I wanted a second meeting.
I stopped eating for days cause the unforgettable face
Always was on my mind,
I wonder why my heart was so kind...
His body was like watching a million stars crashing,
My mind was just seconds from collapsing.
I can’t breathe, I can’t think, I can’t see...
But still I wonder how it would be.
Words are becoming small and I finding myself hitting the wall.
He smells like an endless smell of roses that none of this earth has smelled.

Losing Your Best Friend

One night without you feels more like a year.

I wish I could call you back,

But I know you wouldn't be there.

It feels so sudden to change my routine.

It hurts to leave the comfort

That your presence brought to my scene.

I still want to see you so we can talk.

Wishing we could be close friends.

No more empathy, you just walk.

You walk away and I'm left all alone.

Should I expect you to care?

It's just something you haven't shown.

I know it’s painful for you to see me;

Understandable and sad.

Wish for healing so friends we'll be.

You are the one I got used to turning to,

But now you're not here for me,

As if I can't matter anymore.

The Meeting

At my door you appear,
Greetings exchanged you come inside.
Hugging one another tight,
You begin to kiss me deep.
Leading me to the couch,
You caress my face ever so gently.
Brushing my hair aside you smile
Making me feel at ease…